Friday, April 1, 2011

Acedia Ira Superbia

I try my best to be a good son, I really do, especially now that we're in a post-upheaval limbo, but sometimes, sometimes I wish I could be more selfish. I try to understand my mother, but sometimes, it's just too much. I have had to stop myself from telling her that I wished to leave the house and live alone over the past few days. It's harsh, I know, but having to bear the brunt of things that border on the unreasonable is a test of one's limits. I'm afraid I'm waltzing towards and past my limit. I hope not.

Sometimes I hope she'd see my efforts, too.

cue: Perfect by Simple Plan 

13 comments:

  1. We're not perfect children..and they are not perfect parents too.. may mga pagkukulang tayo sa isa't isa na pwedeng punan ng pag-unawa.. :)

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  2. why not tell her? i think disagreeing with you leaving home would be a sign how important u r in the family. but its still ur decision. leaving home doesn't necessarily mean u r abandoning responsibilities.

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  3. kamila: i'm trying, i'm trying :)

    trip: nah, i didn't actually intend to leave. i guess i thought of it on impulse, when i was in need of some ammunition to lash back with. but all's good now :)

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  4. ahhh... so that would make more of a blackmail then. hehehe. joke. anyway, i gather ur only 19 which means u still lack the guts. hahaha. another joke.

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  5. It's human nature for people to see lack of effort even if there's none. We don't go looking for something that we readily see, after all. Hugs buddy.

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  6. tripper: naka two points ka na,ha! hahahaha. let's all hope i get the guts over time. :)

    ryan: yeah. and it's both sad and frustrating. :< I guess we can only try to be positive even if the temptation to go otherwise is strong.

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  7. ah, but it does it comes with the territory, does it not? perhaps later, you'll be able to have a say with how things are run, but in the meantime, you'll have to learn how to roll with the punch ;)

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  8. hi eternal wanderer! welcome to my blog :)

    and yes, i'm trying to roll with the punches(and the occasional bruise that comes with them, hehe)

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  9. Hang in there Spiral Prince. Let me share a quotation from Peter Ustinov, “Parents are the bone on which children sharpen their teeth”

    Sometimes I feel bad for my parents, but also thank them for allowing me to be a stronger person at their expense. Although I do not condone it, I think that it is an inevitable process of parent-child relations.

    I wish I could have been a better son like yourself, and spare my parents the pain I have caused them.

    I hope everything turns out well soon Spiral Prince. :)

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  10. I didn't have a problem telling my family that I'll be moving out once I've earned the money. I guess they're already waiting for that day to come, coz they know I am capable enough to be independent. Good luck with your plans.

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  11. awwww it's nice that you try to understand her. well maybe you should have a talk with her... i mean if it's dragging too long enough already. approachable ba ang mom mo?

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  12. Dealing with parents is never easy... but it seems at least you have the right attitude about it even if she is testing your limits.

    Stay strong and try to keep in mind she is your mother... she loves you and you love her :)

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  13. if we didn't hate our families, how would we learn to love anyone else. (strange how this sentence still works even if we interchange love and hate)

    i'm sure she sees those things. my mom's a little like that. when she sees how she's making you feel, let's all hope she shows you the love and appreciation you deserve. :)

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